Solstice Story for the Queens of Summer

The first day of summer, the first hint of morning, a loud and scarey buzzing warned me suddenly awake. A thought clouded my distant awareness,”Oh no, what kind of planes are these?” If I opened my eyes, I don’t know. The sky was still dark, yet the sound was so urgent. I worried remotely, unwilling to wake. There was no thought to open the sliding glass door, or look out, investigate the cause of the sound. A tiny finger of lingering consciousness let me cling to a memory as I said a prayer for the world and hoped humanity would survive another day. I turned back toward my inner world and quickly disappeared.

Sleeping again, time passed and waited, knowing more light would bring the hummingbirds, and then would be time to get up.

The huge noise stayed very loud and strong for over an hour, covering the other morning sounds of birds and wind. As I woke for the second time, exiting the dream of my sister’s birthday on the Summer Soltice, the din quieted noticeably, then completely went away. Suddenly, I realized what happened.

Following the shortest night of the year, a fact well known to bee keepers everywhere, bees swarm on the Solstice. I had been listening to a riot of bees who were up at dawn for the longest day. They were busy with much to accomplish today, no time to waste, and urgent focus for the group mind task at hand.

I wish I had realized
sooner what I was hearing. This time I listened but did not see before it was too late. They were gone. I’ve seen it once before, years ago, when I lived in a house where the bees made their home in the south facing wall near a closet. The house had been made with a finger-width gap between the plywood wall board and the beam supporting the roof. It was the perfect size for the door to the hive. They seemed to love the warm side of the house, protected from rain by the overhang, which also gave a bit of shade.

Standing outside, you’d always see the bees coming and going, though the door was fairly well hidden. Inside the house, an occasional bee would discover a secret entrance to my side of the wall, through an open screw hole at the light in the closet. The bee would inevitably fly across the room toward the glass window, and eventually I would catch her there with a clear glass cup pressed up to the pane. Then I’d slide a piece of paper or a postcard to cover the top of the glass, then take the captured bee outside to set her free in the garden. Relieved, she’d fly off toward the flowers, and then most likely back to the hive’s other entrance sometime.

I was researching what kinds of things one could do to remove a hive from the house, without hurting them if possible. That’s when I learned about the mysterious behavior of bees on Summer Solstice. I did not know at first that they sleep at night, and are mostly quiet after the sun goes down. The workers are all ladies, and the male drones are much fewer in number and larger in size. Many drones are shunned from the hive as winter sets in, perhaps to conserve the food supply, but a few are invited to stay and dance, as this creates extra heat and makes the cold months more cozy. In the spring, a few cells in the nursery are fed with extra special royal jelly, and this breeds the largest bees of all, the young Queens of Spring, next heirs to the hival throne.

A retiring beekeeper and mystic once told me that although not all beehives swarm in the summer, if they do, it is usually on the Summer Soltice. Apparently, everywhere in the world on the appointed day, a new queen will fly away from the hive and land on a nearby tree. What I’ve seen when I lived at that house, on the 20th or 21st of June a huge number of bees all flew to a tree in an unusual frenzy in one day.

They crawled and clustered all around the tree, making quite a lot of noise, and seeming uncommonly agitated as they flew around. I imagine they danced to keep warm all night, spending the shortest night of the summer on that tree not far from their hive. It was an old dead tree with no leaves where they gathered. What I saw was a shimmering buzzing mosaic of bees coating the trunk of the tree in the upper third of the bark. Countless hundreds or thousands of bees were clinging to the tree, and the longer they stayed the more bees seemed to join them. Then all of a sudden, as if on cue, a cloud of them lifted off and flew in the shape of a spiral fanning behind.

The swarm was lost in the nearby woods less than a minute later, off the find a new home for themselves before the end of the longest day. I thought at first they had heard my prayers; Perhaps their diva had come into my dreams and made some bargain on behalf of the hive. I knew we both wanted them all to survive. When things quieted down, however, I learned that only half the hive was gone. Pioneers willing to follow the new queen adventured into the unknown world. Wherever they’ve gone, I hope they found an equally wonderful place to nurture the flowers, and celebrate the Solstice.

HERE’s A LINK to a very sweet BEEKEEPER.

Today I am thanking a Snake.

Wordle: Today I thanked a Snake

Everything woke up dead this morning. I’ve been sad too long to be sad or mad.
I just want to understand why, and try to wake up alive tomorrow.
There but for grace go I.

The snake who chased and ate three mice
got caught in the knotted plastic fence
tangled with Vinca surrounding the garden.
Maybe by waiting instead of chasing the second mouse,
or maybe by slithering backwards instead of forwards after she found herself stuck,
she might have survived the gluttonous night.
But the gardener found her perilously ensnared, Dead.
Still digesting three mounds of her final supper. Fully dead.
Ten rattles, and a foamy mouth with two fangs inadequate
to bite through the plastic cords. Scarey dead,
As a ten year old still rattler looks, causing onlookers to keep a safe distance,
Still feeling the threat is not over, still hearing a rattle as the gardener digs
to settle the question with his shovel. Still dead.

I wonder what the snake knows of this story. What remains and what is gone?

Dream Catcher… I Never Believed Until the Experience.

on this eyelash she walked across a delicate new web

suspended by a thread in the ancient design of time.

Search For Infinity

the spaciousness of patience,

the eternity of stillness,

the fullness of emptiness,

the answer in the the question,

the light within the sound of resonance,

the seed within the tree reaching to the starry sky,

one long now, exploding forever to infinity, from the origin of time.

Harmony in June

It’s a gorgeous Sunday, the last day of the Harmony Festival. Allan is thinking of going without me. He thinks sitting in front of computers like we do everyday is a bad idea this Sunday. He longs for a quality connection with friends he might only see once a year at Harmony. Celeste is dancing on the Goddess stage at NOON. Will he make it? I don’t know. But I know he wishes I would go. What pulls me in the other direction is a sense that I should completely stop driving, and instead of planning day by day, I should be looking at the next 10000 years, and 1000 years, and 199 Years, and 18 years, and 2 years, etc. I need to finish two videos by the end of the month, and collect some money, and create some evolutionary tools out of thin air with the help of all I love.

Whirlwind Wheel of Fortune

The circle of thoughts that fill my head each day as I rejoin the waking world could all join hands and circle the world and the moon nine times, so of course I can only capture a very few of them here in the first light of morning. Yet I want to remember, so I try.

After wordless and vast meta conscious thinking, the dream screen of my inner eye was filled with many fragments of the inspirations that have flown by me in the last few days.  With the help of my dream guides, I lit on the principles of practicing prana yama breathing with informed intentional thought as a theoretical way to heal a disease of the body through the desires of the mind and the guidance of spirit. Yantra, Mantra, Tantra… Thought, Word, Action. For me, this is a blueprint for creation. The infinite forms of possibility crystalize in a big bang moment of clear understanding, the thought is uttered in the vibrational language, and the infinite fractal of all that is takes a turn forever toward the unique new discovery of creation.

And that was only the beginning. Since the next few moments in this dream would take a lifetime to express in words, an artform came to me to help organize my experience, and to gather enough of these golden threads to weave a beautiful ‘tapestry of rich and royal hues, an everlasting vision in an everchanging view.’

The Space Time Wheel of FortuneThe wheel of fortune. 10 in the tarot higher arcana. The whirling world. The lady of luck. Ten short sentences to capture a snapshot of all the inspirations I remembered to notice yesterday.

1)Woke up in Cambria, my father’s last home, thinking about Natural Law and Strength and the underlying patterns of irrepressible leadership, expressed by men such as Jesus, Ghengis Khan, JoJo the Ape, the wolf, the bear, the eagle, and the many creatures who worship Anastasia of the Singing Cedars of Russia.

GoogleEarth Asian Rivers from Tibetan Plateau

GoogleEarth Asian Rivers from Tibetan Plateau

2) Felt grateful for the Harrisons in my life, and the way they take their love of the earth and goodness to a huge, informed map of our giant planetary ecosphere, where just one of Earth’s seven continents contains seven mighty rivers that flow from the same Tibetan Plateau, which traverse eleven Asian countries disadvantaged by the warming Earth when the melting and disappearance of 80% of the Himalayan Glaciers in Tibet means that the 1.6 billion people living on the waters of the Ganges, Yangtze, Brahmaputra, Mekong, Huang-Ho, and Salween will need new sources water, but no one sees how big the elephant described by the eleven blind men really is since they are content to fight amongst themselves rather than use their collective human brilliance to grow a new harmonious ecosystem that serves all the living creatures who share the same water.

3) I walked in bliss to breakfast and all day long on new exercise shoes given to me by my sisters for my birthday which we postponed celebration until we could all get together, which turns out to be only barely two days a year.

4) Long attention span theater is only for the curious listeners, but I wonder what happens to all the inspiration to participate that results from all that listening.

5) Thanks to my sister the accountant I now understand how to do a cash reconciliation of a festival, just in the nick of time, I hope.

6) Got up, got out of bed, dragged a comb across my head, looked at my fingernails and today they reflected the golden sunrise, but yesterday they reflected the green of the sky.

7) Awake Media, in business to transform starving artists to hippie philantrepreneurs.

8) Do you know Phil Crawford is the guy who can fix the Santa Cruz County justice system (Lawlessness in Santa Cruz) because he is running for judge, and he used to be a cop who First Responded to gang violence in dangerous neighborhoods in San Jose, then went back to school at 38 to become a lawyer, and ever since then has been creating, teaching, and administering community programs to interrupt and prevent violence for families – which does a lot to make up for the too little money sorely needed for the impossible job of helping police take the flack for too few afterschool programs to keep young kids from starting violence.

9) At the Santa Cruz Film Festival, day two, we saw The Hooping Life, Amy Goldstein’s documentary, which is truly a beautiful movie about the world in which we live, full of inspiration and caring.

10) I found myself reflecting on many facets of the wish granting jewel of time, so fleeting, so eternal.

Ending on a sad note from today’s Santa Cruz Sentinel. “I had no idea people were hating at this level,” she said. The Santa Cruz Live Oak HS is being mistaken for the Morgan Hill Live Oak HS where the stupid Principle sent home some kids wearing RedWhiteBlue instead of CinqoDeMayo colors on May5. Help us Human Race!

Hack, the first to go, as far as I know. In memory.

Death of a friend is always sad news. Maybe a little more remote after such a long time, but it does give me a chance to reminisce.

Such kids we were then. I still feel like the same person who walked or rode bikes past Hack’s house to school, and hung out during some of those awkward years of growing up, and watched from afar as we each took our places in the big worlds of life. He introduced me to the word hypoglycemic… now it still makes me look smart that I know what it means (and how to eat right to avoid the problem.) I haven’t listened to Emerson Lake & Palmer for quite a while, though I do catch myself singing “Welcome back my friends to the show that never ends, I’m glad you could attend, come inside, come inside” from Brain Salad Surgery. I guess that will always remind me of Hack’s house and that time of our lives.

And I’ll always associate those times with reading Woody Allen aloud to each other in the library, and a movie marathon at Hack’s house maybe? Take the Money and Run, Love & Death, Sleeper. In a long life where there are so many chances to move away, I have the sense that Hack stayed pretty close to his original home. I don’t have much knowledge of the last twenty years, sorry to say. He’ll always be for me a freckled kid, really smart, lots of heart, not afraid to listen to acid rock and the world that liked it. I hope his philosopher spirit was feeling strong or optimistic or something worthwhile when he passed. Was he on facebook? My plan is to leave a few traces for the future in the digital domains, and meet you all again in the glistening afterlife. Thanks for the news. I just wrote it in on my calendar.

In a random but interesting synchronicity,  I got the news at a 10 anniversary memorial party for Terrence McKenna, a major bard in the psychedelics community, when Allan looked at your email on his I-phone. Not only would Hack have loved to know Terrence (probably did, as Terrence wrote lots of books on the chemistry and experiences of mind altering substances, and most poetically) but we happened to discuss something Hack might have found interesting.  As counter culture journalists, Allan and I met and interviewed Terrence many times during his life (he died of a brain tumor 10 years ago.) He subscribed to a mad scientist belief that it was perhaps possible to reach back to the living after death and communicate. A few luminary friends including Terrence and Allan agreed to send a message back if possible after the inevitable departure, and darned if we didn’t get a few mysterious emails and unexplained chance occurrences that seemed more than chance in the first year after Terrence died. So, all I can say is that mystery is in the eye of the believer.

Bless Hack, his journey in this world and all worlds. Sympathy for the loss of those who love him most. Thanks for sharing and remembering. Love to you and Nancy, always, and your children almost all grown up. You all have a treasured spot in my memories and my heart.

Love,
Marian McNamee Lundell aka SUN

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That’s SOOOOO 2 minutes ago.

SNAP. One moment you’re hunting ungulates on the plains of Africa, and the next moment you’re hurling a gold  terbium superconducting stellar device toward Alpha Centauri with all of mankind aboard in virtual space being run as a simulation in circuitry. It’s just first the one thing, then the other thing… but this history which lasts 25,000 years is this weird period where you are neither fish nor fowl. You know, you’re not the hunting ape anymore, but you are not yet the sixteen dimensional digital god. And in that transition phase, there is confusion. There is ainxt. But now we’re at the end.

I maintain that anybody who is pushing that, peddling ainxt, peddling pessimism, or all that stuff… well that’s just SOOOO 2 minutes ago.

from Terrence McKenna

Thanks Goz, for turning me on to this. We’ll see you at TIME WAVE ZERO for more fun facts about the future.